I’ve decided that I need to think bigger. Fear has often kept me back from expressing myself as I want to, trying things that are hard, being my true self. I guess I’m afraid of being misunderstood or making mistakes. As I get older, I find myself getting more upset when things happen that are outside of what I expect. I’m not sure why that is. Maybe I want to control things as much as possible in my life. Having breast cancer a couple of years ago increased my need for control I think. Like I write down everything that I eat every day. And I get worried if I don’t exercise five times a week. These activities do help me feel more in control, but I am beginning to lighten up a little.