The Fear of Recurrence

Last weekend, I found a lump on my right breast. I dismissed it for a day or two. Then, on Wednesday, I felt it again in the shower. I told my boyfriend that I wanted to get it checked out. Later that morning, I called the cancer center from work. They saw me the next morning. To my relief, my oncologist thought it was probably changes from the breast reduction I had in November. They did do a mammogram and ultrasound though. The radiologist couldn’t see anything on the ultrasound. Also a good sign. She said that they would keep an eye on the situation. I am due to have mammograms of both breasts in June.

Before I saw my medical team on Thursday, I was really freaking out. Not again. Not so soon after treatment. My oncologist had told me earlier this year that my risk of recurrence was about 20%. I am trying to do things that will minimize the risk, like maintain a healthy weight and exercise every day.


2 thoughts on “The Fear of Recurrence

  1. Iridacea

    It feels to me a bit like walking a tightrope – between moving on in my life post treatment, and acknowledging that small twinges can really freak me out when I hold on to the little fear gremlins. Be gentle with yourself.



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